Reason with Myself

I sat down to hold a reasoning with myself,
Because
I realized I was allowing myself to get away with some simple things and I needed a valid reason, before I get ahead of myself and pass my place….
I had to step away from my old self
Stand outside and take a look inwards at myself…aiming to be outstanding…
Knowing I must build my Self-confidence,
making sure I stayed away from selfish influence,
Be Self-conscious not self-righteous
While I try to find my self-worth and grow my self-esteem,
That’s when I’ll become self-aware,
taking Selfies,
Captured memories…
Tomorrow I have to be my best self,
A new version of myself
Make on lookers take a look at themselves
As I Chronicle my rise to a position of higher esteem…. inhaling my sativa getting steamed
My eyes Opened realizing what self-love means.
Knowing to myself I shouldn’t be mean…
My mind started drifting,
And I started thinking,
And the thought I was thinking
Wasn’t a thought I ought to be thinking,
Thinking these thoughts are destructive thinking and I shouldn’t be keeping those thoughts in mind.
So, While Standing beside myself, I reflected on the thoughts on my mind, thinking I need to keep myself in line,
tiptoeing the line, while reading between the lines like a mastermind…. seeking myself not realizing I’ve been here all the time, like a spiritual awakening, the world is mine.
Forever watchful, being aware of hate filled minds, watching for the good and the bad minds while being silent like mimes
Always Check spelling while reading my mind
Ensuring autocorrect don’t change the intended thought I had in mind
So, I rationalized that I must set deadlines,
Give myself a life line
stop Telling myself I have a lifetime,
Work with specifically defined timelines
Hoping in the process I don’t lose my mind, then be to be tasked with trying to find my mind,
I will always being mindful of the signs,
No matter how many times I changed my mind like I have a set of minds
I still must find myself in the right mindset,
So Nightly I reason with myself,
searching for the right frame of mind,
with desires and emotions aligned, always wanting the whole not just peace of mind, like a puzzle these thoughts broke my mind, but I will put the pieces back in line, trying not to cross the line as I pull myself together and back online knowing my reboot will be based on a higher design.