Reason with Myself

I sat down to hold a reasoning with myself,
Because
I realized I was allowing myself to get away with some simple things and I needed a valid reason, before I get ahead of myself and pass my place….
I had to step away from my old self
Stand outside and take a look inwards at myself…aiming to be outstanding…
Knowing I must build my Self-confidence,
making sure I stayed away from selfish influence,
Be Self-conscious not self-righteous
While I try to find my self-worth and grow my self-esteem,
That’s when I’ll become self-aware,
taking Selfies,
Captured memories…
Tomorrow I have to be my best self,
A new version of myself
Make on lookers take a look at themselves
As I Chronicle my rise to a position of higher esteem…. inhaling my sativa getting steamed
My eyes Opened realizing what self-love means.
Knowing to myself I shouldn’t be mean…
My mind started drifting,
And I started thinking,
And the thought I was thinking
Wasn’t a thought I ought to be thinking,
Thinking these thoughts are destructive thinking and I shouldn’t be keeping those thoughts in mind.
So, While Standing beside myself, I reflected on the thoughts on my mind, thinking I need to keep myself in line,
tiptoeing the line, while reading between the lines like a mastermind…. seeking myself not realizing I’ve been here all the time, like a spiritual awakening, the world is mine.
Forever watchful, being aware of hate filled minds, watching for the good and the bad minds while being silent like mimes
Always Check spelling while reading my mind
Ensuring autocorrect don’t change the intended thought I had in mind
So, I rationalized that I must set deadlines,
Give myself a life line
stop Telling myself I have a lifetime,
Work with specifically defined timelines
Hoping in the process I don’t lose my mind, then be to be tasked with trying to find my mind,
I will always being mindful of the signs,
No matter how many times I changed my mind like I have a set of minds
I still must find myself in the right mindset,
So Nightly I reason with myself,
searching for the right frame of mind,
with desires and emotions aligned, always wanting the whole not just peace of mind, like a puzzle these thoughts broke my mind, but I will put the pieces back in line, trying not to cross the line as I pull myself together and back online knowing my reboot will be based on a higher design.

Anything

Have you ever thought about anything
And nothing at the same time
Even though that sounds confusing
It makes sense
As you sit contemplating nonsense
Sitting doing nothing while thinking
About everything but still not doing anything.
Have you ever thought about everything
And how your choices on anything impacts everything
And while you sit doing nothing you should
Really be thinking about acting and try to do something
Or anything

Box

Behind their lies the truth lies,
Hiding the truth between the lines
Calling them fairy tales and nursery rhymes,
Afraid of the bible because it tells of signs,
To lead the blind, they tell lies in their vision,
Posting alternate facts on their television
Using a box to misguide the nation
Saying think outside the box because they have our brain boxed in
They put us in the box then instruct us on how we should be thinking,
They say stay on the inside, thinking of out,
Mind like a prisoner who wants to get out,
Confined to this box like prison bars,
Trying but can’t hide these boxed in scars,
Having fore-telling visions of a future lost
If the borders of this box can’t be crossed.
So they feed us impaired knowledge with our vision retarded,
Saying we have a handicap due to lack of knowledge,
While life poses a constant challenge,
We’re locked in the box seeking revenge,
The only way to gain the advantage,
Is to stand outside the box and be outstanding,
And while outside the box apply keen thinking,
Not of the inside or the borders the box provide,
But of the opportunities that the box tried to hide
So next time they say we are in a box, ask to be put in a boxing ring,
At least then you know you’d have to fight your way out to win.

Where am I?

Here I am
But is this what I think I am
I’ve faced worse, testing who I am
And I know I can’t run from who I am
Because it’s what I am
That creates the man I am
Do you understand where I am?
Trying to transform the man I am
To be a better man than I am
Looking at the mirror unable to see who I am
Am I as real as I think I am
Or as righteous as I feel I am
My mind’s not where I am
But deep in contemplation as to where I am
While trying to fix the man I am
As I go along, trying to find who, what or where I am
For now I have to resign to being who I am